Drawing A Blank
A lot of the time, when I was sickest, I'd ask questions.
To my team of awesome doctors.
And sometimes, more often than I thought they would, they would simply shrug.
I don't know.
Could be.
Yeah, that might be.
And I thought, well, if you don't know...
It occurred to me sometime down the road that I was sort of an experiment.
That what I was going through was rather unique.
Certainly to me, but also to the field at large.
A let's see what happens.
A "once in a career, if you're lucky" case one said, from their perspective.
I am lucky.
So while I was quite obviously anxious to know definites, there simply wasn't enough of a track record to really say.
Could I have really used something other than a "beats me" answer?
Sure.
Sure.
But I'm still here, ya'll.
Beats me how.
But I'll take it.
🤷♂️
I do know, though.
If you're asking.
Even if you're not.
I've been blessed my whole life.
Every glorious second.
Oddly, especially, when times are darkest.
🌚